Full Circle Gathering

It’s coming!  The Full Circle Gathering. I feel the vibration and rhythm of the drum in its march. I finally hear it welcoming me with gentleness and Love! The sacred unknown connections of another generation of sweet memories in this, my space, greeting me with warm embracing scents of memories I do not yet know. It has good, good bones, this home. Not a blank slate, but a space I will enter whose walls sing with what has already been there. They did it well and now passing the baton to me feels natural and graceful. Baptized with nature in the garden’s outdoor rooms where earth meets home. It’s like a canvas that I will add to, so it feels me too, but I love what I already can sense there, the strong foundation of sweet, sweet memories of those who have already carved moments lived in the present, here in this space.

My guests will see me, but I know they will also feel the presence, purpose and gatherings of the years lived here before me. I can’t explain how I felt welcomed into it before I even saw this house, but I did. I’m not there yet, but very soon. A physical road to be traveled coming back, but in a smaller truck filled with my belongings than when I left. I am proud of the painful process of letting go of “things” in these past 10 years. This grieving, yet so freeing, letting go of the past. Now, finally now, my stretched-out hand is almost touching the entrance to this full circle gathering place where I will open the door into what I have ached for in such deep places that others didn’t see. Many years of hoping, waiting, and planning the coming home.

And now! Nesting and settling into a space where my hands touch hospitality, cooking, creativity, gardening, community, friendship, giving and bringing! Where my feet touch the earth in woods scented with the vanilla of the pines, thick firs and the wisdom of giant redwoods! Where I can hear the song of the running river steps from where I sleep and am hugged by every season! Home where I feel safe, cozy, welcomed into my own space and this gathering space for others!

Years ago, I didn’t know it would be a different home, a different town that would be forged by my tears alone, but it is so very, very sweet as I welcome you, my new home, to me.  I’m back!